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Yes, he's at it again, leaving his fragile wings out in the open. Its like sticking your head out in those first person shooter games without even hiding for cover. Wanting to be sniped in the head and getting a headshot.

"And yet, sometimes, when your heart desires it, you cant help but do it. No matter how much you'd like to avoid it. It just can't be helped."

That's what he tells me now.

He said to me, "It's been way too long."

I tell him, "It's not gonna be any different with that fish in the pond. You are just way too different! You hardly can even see her in there!"

He looks away, deep in thought again. His expression changes to that of confusion. Unsure of what exactly he truly wants to do.

"I just don't know anymore, I see other people being together. I envy them! I truly do miss having someone to love and be loved by."

I look at him, "Your still very young little humming bird, there are still years ahead of yourself. There are still plenty of time for you to find the perfect person. Have hope!"

"But why?? Why is it like this?? When is it that when I finally meet someone who has an inkling of interest to me, it'll be someone so far apart?"

Unsure of what to say, I kept quiet for abit.

He sighs,"I just don't understand why I have to go through all of this."

"Well maybe the almighty one has something else in stored for you. Someone truly special that was made just for you." I say to him.

He responded quickly this time, "What if she is the one for me?? I'm afraid that if I don't grasp this opportunity with both hands, I might regret it. Like I've regretted so many other things before."

I replied,"Maybe..." Then I realise I don't really know what to say to him. Not exactly. Even I am unsure of it now.

"For some reason, I feel that she is truly the one for me. But, it wont be an easy path to take."

"No it is hardly an easy path, there is still so much ahead if you were to take this path. But then again, the best things in life has never arrived so easily."

He flutters around aimlessly now. Deep in thought.

"I'm worried.", he says,"What if she doesn't even like me? She hasn't seen how I truly look like. No, she has only seen me through the surface of the water. For that matter, she doesn't even know what my real name is."

I tell him,"Well if she's truly the one for you, then she will love you no matter how you look or what your name may be. In reality, it really is the person inside that truly counts."

"I know that in the long run, the person whom you truly want to grow old with is someone who you really get along with."

"True that." I say, "Beauty on the outside will fade in time, but beauty on the inside will last forever."

"Exactly. But I am really scared still though. When finally someone comes knocking, I feel afraid to show my face."

I look at him, his wings fluttering tensely by a rose leaf.

"Maybe I should take my time with it. Let her get to know me even better. Before finally showing my face."

I stare straight at him, unsure what to say. "Well I guess that's the only path there is. but remember this, the longer you don't show your true self, and your real name, the deeper of a mess you will be in."

"Agreed."