Wow, its almost a month!

Hey people!

Wow, its almost been a month! time seems to fly by.. ahhh, so much work going on as well!! Been really REALLY busy recently... Loads of work its insane, and I thought 2nd year was busy...

Anyhow, I just thought I'd let myself type out a blog, just feel like expressing myself for a bit.

Hahah!

Envious

Synonyms:

• adjective: jealous, jaundiced, green-eyed, yellow, covetous

• Feeling or showing envy

Envy (also called invidiousness) may be defined as an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another's (perceived) superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it."

Just copied those bit of the net, if your wondering, thats how im feeling... partially at least...

Now what am I envious about? I'll let you guess XD

Sigh, some things you sometimes just REALLY REALLY want, but some bit of you knows deep inside you, that you just cant have them. Be it lack of money, it being too pricey, or maybe lack of the things that you want.

Its annoying if you see it belonging to others, yet you cant have it yourself... Sometimes, your heart just screams at you to just take it, but sometimes there are just interference, something or someone stopping you, be it yourself..

Then you wonder, maybe these things just aren't for you, for example, I'd LOVE to have the superfly II mecurial vapor, but there just is no reason for me to have them.. I almost never played in proper grass here, why bother? I'd just be wasting it if i use it in the turf i normally play at..

Sigh, then again, you can't deny you really really want them..

I guess you can argue that theres nothing wrong with wanting something better, we wont be human if we dont want improvement you might say.. Then again, some of these things would just hurt the people your most closest with.. Maybe wasting money that your parents want you to use for studying instead, or maybe your girlfriend/boyfriend wouldnt want you to have it..

What then?

PS: its not about the shoes...