If only

So yeah, it's been a while since I last posted anything in this blog. Alot has change since last I posted here, lots of things has happened since then, plenty of decisions made, time wasted, time enjoyed. And I've grown up a bit, as with everyone else.

At any rate, now I'm done with my postgraduate course, now im back in Kk indefinitely. Working at the family company, but things are looking pretty bright, lots of things to look forward to. 

So yeah, I just got back from one of our plantations, went to futsal earlier. Thought it was a good game as everyone was actually carrying their weight, so that was fun. Been a while since I had a team that did that.

So yeah, my thoughts are pretty random and jumbled up at the moment. Sigh, looking back at the past, there's so many things I wish I've done differently. Maybe I should have been more patient at this time, I shouldn't have made that decision, I shouldn't have said this and that. But those are all in the past now, and some things just can't be changed anymore. The mistakes we make, makes the person we are today. Though to be honest, I'm not sure I like the me now neither. But I guess all I could do now is move forward.  Maybe.

Thinking back in time, is it just me, or is it the same with everyone, would it have been different if I just changed that 1 decision I made in the past, would everything have changed now? I do honestly wonder had I changed that 1 thing, how would the Jerom be now instead, would I have experienced the same things anyway? 

Probably would be very different.

If only.